an old memoir of self

FUCK YOU,
AND YOUR GOD.



Me, well, I'm Kelsie

I am everything you are not.

drugs, sex, rock & roll, fashion, passion, art, alcohol, and ciggarettes.


Me well i'm 16

and i speak in strange tounges

i sleep like a crack addict but with out the addiction.

always wanting it but never quite recieving as much as they would like.

i hate the feeling of being used, hell, i hate the feeling of using somene.

but any more whats the difference.

We may be the same but really i do not compare to some of the things you do.

I am not afraid to say what needs to be said.

I am something small ready to blossom into something a hell of a lot bigger than what i am capable of.

i dream for days but nothing comes out.

i love, but i hate even more.

i stay close to the one i love, and he never leaves my side.

josh changed my life, and if you have a problem with him.. you shouldnt tell me, or i kill a bitch.

i want change but i am to small to change the world myself.

i feel like i am falling out from under my own two feet.

recieding into oblivion.

I am not a stick, therefore, i do not break easily.

Judge me I dare you. Do it to my face not behind my back

nothing really happens these days.

pills to make you cooperate and freak out all at the same time.

i get stoned and play loud music for hours.

it all doesnt matter.

so if anything at all i think that i am a little bit of nothing but a whole lot of something.

. I am a secret agent in need of an antidot. I am a crooked cop that never answers staright. I am the girl that is here right now.

If you use or abuse i refuse to inspire.

If you suck the color out of my world i will get my crayons back out.

There is nothing you can do to scare me.

Never take the future too seriously. Never take anything too seriously.
I say what i feel is correct.

I do not consider your feelings or values, it all just comes out with out warning.

I get in truble alot for this, also because i have a nack for winning arguments.

Watch your mouth and i might watch mine.

so....

untill then i will be upside down in my own oblivion of a requiem for my own dream.

keep dreaming stop sleeping it just wastes time.





give me a week.

and i will blow your mind.

(literally)







"My final point about alchohol, about drugs, about Pornography...What business is it of your's what I do, read, buy, see or take into my body as long as I don't harm another human being whilst on this planet? And for those of you having a little moral dilemna on how to answer this, I'll answer for you. NONE OF YOUR FUCKING BUSINESS Take that to the bank, cash it and take it on a vacation outta my fucking life. And stop bringing shotguns to UFO sightings, they might be here to pick me up and take me with 'em."
-Bill Hicks


"I believe in a long, prolonged, derangement of the senses in order to obtain the unknown."
-Jim Morrison


"People fear death even more than pain. It's strange that they fear death. Life hurts a lot more than death. At the point of death, the pain is over. Yeah, I guess it is a friend."
-Jim Morrison


"Some of the worst mistakes of my life have been haircuts."
-Jim Morrison