undeniably unforgettable.

I BELIEVE I HAVE FOUND IT
SOMETHING REMARKABLEY
ASTOUNDINGLY
UNDENIABLY
BEAUTIFUL.
THIS THING THAT I CALLED LOVE ONCE
MORE LESS A LIKE
BUT ITS BEAUTIFUL
INSATIABLE
BUT YOUR CHEMICALS COLLIDE
AND WE CREATE A KHEMICAL KREATION
SOMETHING LIKE NEVER BEFORE
WE KEEP GETTING CAUGHT UPIN
WHATS IN OUR LIVES
YOU MAKE ME SO VULNERABLE
BUT THE WAY YOU SMILE IS LIKE NO OTHER
THE WAY YOU BREATHE IS LIKE NOTHING I EVER SEEN BEFORE
YOU MAKE ME DESPERATE FOR AIR
IM LIKE LIKE A FOOL FOR YOU
LIKE NO BOY COULD EVER DO
ITS ALL THE SAME
IM SPINNING IN THIS FOREST OF BUBBLEGUM AND MARIJUANA
YOU WERE SLEEPING
AND I STAYED UP ALL NIGHT
WATCHING YOU
ITS BEAUTIFUL
TRANQUIL
ALMOST THE WAY WE KEEP COLLIDING
AND ITS SO ASTOUNDING HOW YOU MAKE ME FEEL
I AM ALIVE FOR ONCE
LIKE NEVER BEFORE
I JUMP AND SING AND FALL WITH GRACE
AND YOU KEEP LOOKING AT ME
AS IF YOU WERE AMAZED FROM THE FIRST SIGHT.

an old memoir of self

FUCK YOU,
AND YOUR GOD.



Me, well, I'm Kelsie

I am everything you are not.

drugs, sex, rock & roll, fashion, passion, art, alcohol, and ciggarettes.


Me well i'm 16

and i speak in strange tounges

i sleep like a crack addict but with out the addiction.

always wanting it but never quite recieving as much as they would like.

i hate the feeling of being used, hell, i hate the feeling of using somene.

but any more whats the difference.

We may be the same but really i do not compare to some of the things you do.

I am not afraid to say what needs to be said.

I am something small ready to blossom into something a hell of a lot bigger than what i am capable of.

i dream for days but nothing comes out.

i love, but i hate even more.

i stay close to the one i love, and he never leaves my side.

josh changed my life, and if you have a problem with him.. you shouldnt tell me, or i kill a bitch.

i want change but i am to small to change the world myself.

i feel like i am falling out from under my own two feet.

recieding into oblivion.

I am not a stick, therefore, i do not break easily.

Judge me I dare you. Do it to my face not behind my back

nothing really happens these days.

pills to make you cooperate and freak out all at the same time.

i get stoned and play loud music for hours.

it all doesnt matter.

so if anything at all i think that i am a little bit of nothing but a whole lot of something.

. I am a secret agent in need of an antidot. I am a crooked cop that never answers staright. I am the girl that is here right now.

If you use or abuse i refuse to inspire.

If you suck the color out of my world i will get my crayons back out.

There is nothing you can do to scare me.

Never take the future too seriously. Never take anything too seriously.
I say what i feel is correct.

I do not consider your feelings or values, it all just comes out with out warning.

I get in truble alot for this, also because i have a nack for winning arguments.

Watch your mouth and i might watch mine.

so....

untill then i will be upside down in my own oblivion of a requiem for my own dream.

keep dreaming stop sleeping it just wastes time.





give me a week.

and i will blow your mind.

(literally)







"My final point about alchohol, about drugs, about Pornography...What business is it of your's what I do, read, buy, see or take into my body as long as I don't harm another human being whilst on this planet? And for those of you having a little moral dilemna on how to answer this, I'll answer for you. NONE OF YOUR FUCKING BUSINESS Take that to the bank, cash it and take it on a vacation outta my fucking life. And stop bringing shotguns to UFO sightings, they might be here to pick me up and take me with 'em."
-Bill Hicks


"I believe in a long, prolonged, derangement of the senses in order to obtain the unknown."
-Jim Morrison


"People fear death even more than pain. It's strange that they fear death. Life hurts a lot more than death. At the point of death, the pain is over. Yeah, I guess it is a friend."
-Jim Morrison


"Some of the worst mistakes of my life have been haircuts."
-Jim Morrison